I visited the different altars and bowed my head. I decided to let my gaze fall upon the statues and observe the reverence that occurred.
I then dreamt of the god’s faces, each solemn glance turned menacing, they showed me their teeth, and became a black hole reaching for the glint of my light.
I returned helplessly trying to find a better god, my gaze turned frantic, my eyes trying to make sense. The devils turned to angels and the angels disappeared with a grin. I hid away and swam into the seas. Was swallowed by a whale and flew up and out into a fountain. I walked the beautiful gardens, “heaven” I whispered but was corrected by a chuckle of amusement, “no such thing”. I turned to watch the titans walking about and followed their steps to the mountains. I followed their pointing hand into the caves and I wandered and wandered through the mazes. Each turn a reflection of each lifetime I ever lived. When I reached the end, I exited into a starry filled night.
I did not want to leave and sat at the edge of the sea, the waves lapping while the red dragons flew above. I thought, “aren’t they the devils” and one sent a fireball that consumed me. But I burned the same, and it became a battle of my own wits. I figured the rhythm and burned just the same. The flames subsided and the dragon lay near me. I sat and closed my eyes too and in their reverie I realized a certain truth.
You can choose to be the mirror, you can choose to be eaten, you can choose to be a refuge for another monster but you can also choose to stand in your own righteousness and refuse. I refuse, and with the lessons of fire I burned my own path, and make my own exit, make my own way, I choose to fully stand in my own light.